My husband has a herniated disk in his back, and possibly tears in the muscle/joint near his hip. For the past few weeks he's gotten different tests done, xrays, and MRIs. Today we get the results.
Here's what's already happened so far....
Our PCS to Korea has been canceled.
He's on a non-PCS list for one year.
He non-deployable.
Each test has caused him more pain.
No medication has worked thus far to take the pain away.
Today we find out....
What's actually wrong.
Does he need surgery?
We get new meds for him.
When surgery and/or further tests will take place.
PRAY!
thanks :)
I love my husband.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Two weeks!
I know... I haven't posted in so very long, and there's still have of the prayer book to be posted. BUT I must share with you that PRAYER WORKS!!! My husband called me and apologized for sending me and our children away...he professed his love for me...vowed he would do everything in his power to be a better husband and father. Only God was involved! It was not my words nor my actions that caused my husband's change of heart. I am so blessed and excited and have such a renewing of faith, it is amazing!
I am not going to continue posting the TPOPW prayers, but know that I did continue them and have since finished the book.
I have a renewed faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ!
I will be moving back to my husband in (if everything goes according to plan) two weeks! Thank you Jesus!
Pray for your husband! It can mean all the difference in the world!
I love my husband!
I am not going to continue posting the TPOPW prayers, but know that I did continue them and have since finished the book.
I have a renewed faith in the Lord, Jesus Christ!
I will be moving back to my husband in (if everything goes according to plan) two weeks! Thank you Jesus!
Pray for your husband! It can mean all the difference in the world!
I love my husband!
Monday, June 14, 2010
Prayer 12 & 13
I'm combining these into one post. Yes, I did the 12th prayer yesterday, but I just didn't get on here to post it. :)
HIS PROTECTION
Lord, I pray that You would protect my husband from any accident, diseases, dangers, or evil influences. Keep him safe, especially in cars and planes. Hide him from violence and the plans of evil people. Wherever he walks, secure his steps. Keep him on Your path so his feet don't slip (psalm 17:5). If his foot does slip, hold him by Your mercy (psalm 94:18). Give him the wisdom and discretion that will help him walk safely and not fall into danger (prov 3:21-23). Make him to dwell in the shadow of Your wings (psalm 18:2-3). Be his rock, salvation, and defense, so that he will not be moved or shaken (psalm 62:6). I pray that even though bad things may be happening all around him, they will not come near him (psalm 91:7). Save him from any plans of the enemy that seek to destroy his life (psalm 103:4). Preserve his going out and his coming in from this time forward and even forevermore (psalm 121:8).
HIS TRIALS
Lord, You alone know the depth of the burden my husband carries. I may understand the specifics, but You have measured the weight of it on his shoulders. I've not come to minimize what You are doing in his life, for I know You work great things in the midst of trials. Nor am I trying to protect him from what he must face. I only want to support him so that he will get through this battle a winner.
God, You are our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (psalm 46:1). You have invited us to come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need (hebrews 4:16). I come before Your throne and ask for grace for my husband. Strengthen his heart for this battle and give him patience to wait in You (psalm 17:1-4). Build him up so that no matter what happens he will be able to stand up strong through it. Help him to always be rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer (romans 12:12). Give him endurance to run the race and not give up, for You have said that "a righteous man may fall seven times and rise again" (prov 24:16). Help him to remember that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and he delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down:for the Lord upholds him with His hand (psalm 37:23-24)
I pray that he will look to You to be his refuge until these calamities have passed by (psalm 57:1). May he learn to wait on You because those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31). I pray that he shall find his strength in You and as he cries out to You, You will hear him and save him out of all his troubles (psalm 34:6).
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AMEN!! LET IT BE DONE!!!
I LOVE MY HUSBAND!
HIS PROTECTION
Lord, I pray that You would protect my husband from any accident, diseases, dangers, or evil influences. Keep him safe, especially in cars and planes. Hide him from violence and the plans of evil people. Wherever he walks, secure his steps. Keep him on Your path so his feet don't slip (psalm 17:5). If his foot does slip, hold him by Your mercy (psalm 94:18). Give him the wisdom and discretion that will help him walk safely and not fall into danger (prov 3:21-23). Make him to dwell in the shadow of Your wings (psalm 18:2-3). Be his rock, salvation, and defense, so that he will not be moved or shaken (psalm 62:6). I pray that even though bad things may be happening all around him, they will not come near him (psalm 91:7). Save him from any plans of the enemy that seek to destroy his life (psalm 103:4). Preserve his going out and his coming in from this time forward and even forevermore (psalm 121:8).
HIS TRIALS
Lord, You alone know the depth of the burden my husband carries. I may understand the specifics, but You have measured the weight of it on his shoulders. I've not come to minimize what You are doing in his life, for I know You work great things in the midst of trials. Nor am I trying to protect him from what he must face. I only want to support him so that he will get through this battle a winner.
God, You are our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble (psalm 46:1). You have invited us to come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need (hebrews 4:16). I come before Your throne and ask for grace for my husband. Strengthen his heart for this battle and give him patience to wait in You (psalm 17:1-4). Build him up so that no matter what happens he will be able to stand up strong through it. Help him to always be rejoicing in hope, patient in tribulation, continuing steadfastly in prayer (romans 12:12). Give him endurance to run the race and not give up, for You have said that "a righteous man may fall seven times and rise again" (prov 24:16). Help him to remember that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and he delights in his way. Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down:for the Lord upholds him with His hand (psalm 37:23-24)
I pray that he will look to You to be his refuge until these calamities have passed by (psalm 57:1). May he learn to wait on You because those who wait on the Lord shall renew their strength: they shall mount up with wings like eagles, they shall run and not be weary, they shall walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31). I pray that he shall find his strength in You and as he cries out to You, You will hear him and save him out of all his troubles (psalm 34:6).
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AMEN!! LET IT BE DONE!!!
I LOVE MY HUSBAND!
prayer is working
My husband and i talked for the first time last night!! I mean a real conversation, like a "how are you doing?" conversation. We've a long way to go, but talking is definitely a GREAT first step!
I love my husband!
I love my husband!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Prayer 11
HIS HEALTH
Lord, I pray your healing touch on my husband. Make every part of his body function the way You designed it to. Wherever there is anything out of balance, set it in perfect working order. Heal him of any disease, illness, injury, infirmity, or weakness. Strengthen his body to successfully endure his workload, and when he sleeps, may he wake up completely rested, rejuvenated and refreshed. Give him a strong heart that doesn't fail. I dont want him to have heart failure at any time.
I pray that he will have the desire to take care of his body, to eat the kind of food that brings health, to get regular exercise, and avoid anything that would be harmful to him. Help him to understand that his body is Your temple and he should care for it as such. (1 cor 3:16) I pray that he will present it as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to You. (romans 12:1)
When he is ill, I pray that You will sustain him and heal him. Fill him with your joy to give him strength. God, I specifically pray for his area of weight, help him to get it down so that his PT evals at work are no longer an issue. Give him faith to say, Oh Lord my God, I cried out to You and You healed me. (Psalm 30:2) Thank You, Lord, that you are my Healer. I pray that my husband live a long and healthy life and when death does come, may it be accompanied by peace and not unbearable suffering and agony. Thank You, Lord, that You will be there to welcome him into Your presence and not a moment before Your appointed hour.
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All of this is something I have prayed regularly.
I love my husband!
Lord, I pray your healing touch on my husband. Make every part of his body function the way You designed it to. Wherever there is anything out of balance, set it in perfect working order. Heal him of any disease, illness, injury, infirmity, or weakness. Strengthen his body to successfully endure his workload, and when he sleeps, may he wake up completely rested, rejuvenated and refreshed. Give him a strong heart that doesn't fail. I dont want him to have heart failure at any time.
I pray that he will have the desire to take care of his body, to eat the kind of food that brings health, to get regular exercise, and avoid anything that would be harmful to him. Help him to understand that his body is Your temple and he should care for it as such. (1 cor 3:16) I pray that he will present it as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to You. (romans 12:1)
When he is ill, I pray that You will sustain him and heal him. Fill him with your joy to give him strength. God, I specifically pray for his area of weight, help him to get it down so that his PT evals at work are no longer an issue. Give him faith to say, Oh Lord my God, I cried out to You and You healed me. (Psalm 30:2) Thank You, Lord, that you are my Healer. I pray that my husband live a long and healthy life and when death does come, may it be accompanied by peace and not unbearable suffering and agony. Thank You, Lord, that You will be there to welcome him into Your presence and not a moment before Your appointed hour.
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All of this is something I have prayed regularly.
I love my husband!
Friday, June 11, 2010
praying with a friend
I gave an old friend the same book that I am going through, because she's in a similar situation as I. And now we will go through this together, as prayer partners. I love her to death! And wherever two or more are gathered, prayer's more powerful!
I love my husband!
I love my husband!
Prayer 10
HIS CHOICES
Lord, fill my husband with the fear of the Lord and give him wisdom for every decision he makes. May he reverence You and Your ways and seek to know Your truth. Give him discernment to make decisions base don Your revelation. Help him to make godly choices and keep him from doing anything foolish. Take foolishness out of his heart and enable him to quickly recognize error and avoid it. Open his eyes to clearly see the consequences of any anticipated behavior.
I pray that he will listen to godly counselors and not be a man who is unteachable. Give him strength to reject the counsel of the ungodly and hear Your counsel above all others. I declare that although there are many plans in a man's heart, nevertheless the Lord's counsel will stand (Psalm 19:21). Instruct him even as he is sleeping (Psalm 16:7), and in the morning, I pray he will do what's right rather than following the leading of his own flesh. I know the wisdom of this world if foolishness with You, Lord (1 Cor 3:19). May he not buy into it, but keep his eyes on You and have ears to hear Your voice.
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All of these prayers are so good...and as i get further along in this book, I think each prayer is better than the last. This one is definitely the prayer i want to write out and post on my mirror to pray every morning as I wake up, and to pray as I lay my head down on the pillow. This prayer, affects all others. It affects the choices he makes, which are so important. I too, pray these things for myself!
God, give me and my husband wisdom. May we do the right and wise thing for our marriage, family, and children!
I love my husband!!
Lord, fill my husband with the fear of the Lord and give him wisdom for every decision he makes. May he reverence You and Your ways and seek to know Your truth. Give him discernment to make decisions base don Your revelation. Help him to make godly choices and keep him from doing anything foolish. Take foolishness out of his heart and enable him to quickly recognize error and avoid it. Open his eyes to clearly see the consequences of any anticipated behavior.
I pray that he will listen to godly counselors and not be a man who is unteachable. Give him strength to reject the counsel of the ungodly and hear Your counsel above all others. I declare that although there are many plans in a man's heart, nevertheless the Lord's counsel will stand (Psalm 19:21). Instruct him even as he is sleeping (Psalm 16:7), and in the morning, I pray he will do what's right rather than following the leading of his own flesh. I know the wisdom of this world if foolishness with You, Lord (1 Cor 3:19). May he not buy into it, but keep his eyes on You and have ears to hear Your voice.
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All of these prayers are so good...and as i get further along in this book, I think each prayer is better than the last. This one is definitely the prayer i want to write out and post on my mirror to pray every morning as I wake up, and to pray as I lay my head down on the pillow. This prayer, affects all others. It affects the choices he makes, which are so important. I too, pray these things for myself!
God, give me and my husband wisdom. May we do the right and wise thing for our marriage, family, and children!
I love my husband!!
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Prayer 9
HIS PURPOSE
Lord, I pray that my husband will clearly hear the call You have on his life. Help him to realize who he is in Christ and give him certainty that he was created for a high purpose. May the eyes of his understanding be enlightened so that he will know what is the hope of Your calling (ephesians 1:18).
Lord, when You call us, You also enable us. Enable him to walk worthy of his calling and become the Man of God You made him to be. Continue to remind him of what You've called him to and don't let him get sidetracked with things that are unessential to your purpose. Strike down discouragement so that it will not defeat him. Give him patience to wait for Your perfect timing. I pray that the desires of his heart will not be in conflict with the desires of Yours. May he seek You for direction, and hear You speak to his soul.
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I love my husband! Please God, I am struggling in praying! I am struggling about whether or not prayer works... Please God, show me that I am not doing this for naught!
I love my husband!
Lord, I pray that my husband will clearly hear the call You have on his life. Help him to realize who he is in Christ and give him certainty that he was created for a high purpose. May the eyes of his understanding be enlightened so that he will know what is the hope of Your calling (ephesians 1:18).
Lord, when You call us, You also enable us. Enable him to walk worthy of his calling and become the Man of God You made him to be. Continue to remind him of what You've called him to and don't let him get sidetracked with things that are unessential to your purpose. Strike down discouragement so that it will not defeat him. Give him patience to wait for Your perfect timing. I pray that the desires of his heart will not be in conflict with the desires of Yours. May he seek You for direction, and hear You speak to his soul.
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I love my husband! Please God, I am struggling in praying! I am struggling about whether or not prayer works... Please God, show me that I am not doing this for naught!
I love my husband!
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
i miss him
Basically the title says it all.
I really, really miss my husband.
I miss his smile, not the one found in pictures...but his real, 'i love you' smile. I miss hugging him, lying next to him at night...I miss our conversations, no matter what they were about. I miss the talks about what's going on in sports. I miss him confiding in me about his work. I miss just being with my husband.
I feel like i took so much for granted. Even the things I thought I didn't like, I'm finding that I miss. I shouldn't have taken all of it for granted, I didn't realize that I did... :(
I love my husband! Dear God, hear my prayers! I love my husband!
I really, really miss my husband.
I miss his smile, not the one found in pictures...but his real, 'i love you' smile. I miss hugging him, lying next to him at night...I miss our conversations, no matter what they were about. I miss the talks about what's going on in sports. I miss him confiding in me about his work. I miss just being with my husband.
I feel like i took so much for granted. Even the things I thought I didn't like, I'm finding that I miss. I shouldn't have taken all of it for granted, I didn't realize that I did... :(
I love my husband! Dear God, hear my prayers! I love my husband!
God is working
In the mail today, I received a gift from one of my in-laws. The book, "The Power of a Praying Wife" and a the first sermon in a series on marriage. The book happens to be the exact one I am going through on here. And the marriage series she is also sending to my husband, so I pray that the power of God fills that cd and is so enticing that my husband has the desire to listen to it.
Also, I just found out that the man that my husband is wanting to have move in with him is a man of God. Thank you, Jesus! I pray that he is a powerful witness to my husband!
God is on the move even now!
I am praying and trusting in Him!
He is all-powerful God!
I love my husband!
Also, I just found out that the man that my husband is wanting to have move in with him is a man of God. Thank you, Jesus! I pray that he is a powerful witness to my husband!
God is on the move even now!
I am praying and trusting in Him!
He is all-powerful God!
I love my husband!
Prayer 8
HIS FEARS
Lord, You've said in Your Word that there is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. (1 john 4:18) I pray You will perfect my husband in Your love so that tormenting fear finds no place in him. I know You have not given him a spirit of fear. You've given him power, love and a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7) I pray in the name of Jesus that fear will not rule over my husband. Instead, may Your Word penetrate every fiber of his being, convincing him that Your love for him is far greater than anything he faces and nothing can separate him from it.
I pray that he will acknowledge You as a Father whose love is unfailing, whose strength is without equal, and in whose presence there is nothing to fear. Deliver him this from fear that destroys and replace it with a godly fear. (jeremiah 32:40) Teach him Your way, O Lord. Help him to walk in Your truth. Unite his heart to fear Your name (psalm 86:11). May he have no fear of men, but rise up and boldly say, "The Lord is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?" (hebrews 13:6) "How great is Your goodness, which You have laid up for those who fear You" (psalm 31:19).
I say to my husband, "Be strong, do not fear! Behold Your God will come with a vengeance, with the recompense of God; He will come and save you." (isaiah 54:14) "You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day, nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday." (psalm 91:5-6) May the Spirit of the Lord rest upon you, the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, the Spirit of counsel and might, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord. (Isaiah 11:2)
(pages 89-90 in TPOPW)
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I pray all of this in Jesus name!! May the Holy Spirit show my husband Jesus' love!! It is perfect! May my husband no longer see the negative "what if's" and instead pursue the positives that CAN BE! He deserves them! May he find You, Lord, as his Savior!
I love my husband!
Lord, You've said in Your Word that there is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. (1 john 4:18) I pray You will perfect my husband in Your love so that tormenting fear finds no place in him. I know You have not given him a spirit of fear. You've given him power, love and a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7) I pray in the name of Jesus that fear will not rule over my husband. Instead, may Your Word penetrate every fiber of his being, convincing him that Your love for him is far greater than anything he faces and nothing can separate him from it.
I pray that he will acknowledge You as a Father whose love is unfailing, whose strength is without equal, and in whose presence there is nothing to fear. Deliver him this from fear that destroys and replace it with a godly fear. (jeremiah 32:40) Teach him Your way, O Lord. Help him to walk in Your truth. Unite his heart to fear Your name (psalm 86:11). May he have no fear of men, but rise up and boldly say, "The Lord is my helper; I will not fear. What can man do to me?" (hebrews 13:6) "How great is Your goodness, which You have laid up for those who fear You" (psalm 31:19).
I say to my husband, "Be strong, do not fear! Behold Your God will come with a vengeance, with the recompense of God; He will come and save you." (isaiah 54:14) "You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, nor of the arrow that flies by day, nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness, nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday." (psalm 91:5-6) May the Spirit of the Lord rest upon you, the Spirit of wisdom and understanding, the Spirit of counsel and might, the Spirit of knowledge and of the fear of the Lord. (Isaiah 11:2)
(pages 89-90 in TPOPW)
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I pray all of this in Jesus name!! May the Holy Spirit show my husband Jesus' love!! It is perfect! May my husband no longer see the negative "what if's" and instead pursue the positives that CAN BE! He deserves them! May he find You, Lord, as his Savior!
I love my husband!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Prayer 7
HIS MIND
Lord, I pray for Your protection on my husband's mind. Shield him from the lies of the enemy. Help him to clearly discern between Your voice and any other, and show him how to take every thought captive as You have instructed us to do. May he thirst for Your Word and hunger for Your truth so that he can recognize wrong thinking. Give him strength to resist lying thought. Remind him that he has the mind of Christ. Where the enemy's lies have already invaded his thoughts, I push them back by inviting the power of the Holy Spirit to cleanse his mind. Lord, You have given me authority over all the power of the enemy (luke 10:19). By that authority given to me in Jesus Christ, I command all lying spirits away from my husband's mind. I proclaim that God has given my husband a sound mind. He will not entertain confusion, but live in clarity. He will not be tormented with impure, evil, negative, or sinful thoughts, but be transformed by the renewing of his mind, that he may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God (romans 12:2).
Enable him to be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. (ephesians 6:10) Help him to be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let his requests be made known to You; and may Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, guard his heart and mind through Christ Jesus (philippians 4:6-7). And finally, whatever things are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, having virtue, or anything praiseworthy, let him think on these things (philippians 4:8).
(page 84 in TPOPW)
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Again, this hits home. My husband's mind is filled with words like "hopeless, no good, failure, impossible, it's over, and why try" in regards to our family. I am praying that my husband will discern these lies and hear instead words like "hope, success, prosperity, possibility, and new beginning." These words are the words of God and the ones that I pray my husband hears.
I didn't realize that I could take on my husband's mind battles too...in PRAYER. That's what this is, I am fighting the Devil with my prayers to Jesus and anyone who joins in on these prayers is fighting side by side with me. My family deserves reconciliation. It is God's will that a husband and wife should love each other and be One with Him. My husband needs Jesus and to be the head of this family as Christ is head of the church.
We can make this happen! I love my husband!
Lord, I pray for Your protection on my husband's mind. Shield him from the lies of the enemy. Help him to clearly discern between Your voice and any other, and show him how to take every thought captive as You have instructed us to do. May he thirst for Your Word and hunger for Your truth so that he can recognize wrong thinking. Give him strength to resist lying thought. Remind him that he has the mind of Christ. Where the enemy's lies have already invaded his thoughts, I push them back by inviting the power of the Holy Spirit to cleanse his mind. Lord, You have given me authority over all the power of the enemy (luke 10:19). By that authority given to me in Jesus Christ, I command all lying spirits away from my husband's mind. I proclaim that God has given my husband a sound mind. He will not entertain confusion, but live in clarity. He will not be tormented with impure, evil, negative, or sinful thoughts, but be transformed by the renewing of his mind, that he may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God (romans 12:2).
Enable him to be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. (ephesians 6:10) Help him to be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let his requests be made known to You; and may Your peace, which surpasses all understanding, guard his heart and mind through Christ Jesus (philippians 4:6-7). And finally, whatever things are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, of good report, having virtue, or anything praiseworthy, let him think on these things (philippians 4:8).
(page 84 in TPOPW)
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Again, this hits home. My husband's mind is filled with words like "hopeless, no good, failure, impossible, it's over, and why try" in regards to our family. I am praying that my husband will discern these lies and hear instead words like "hope, success, prosperity, possibility, and new beginning." These words are the words of God and the ones that I pray my husband hears.
I didn't realize that I could take on my husband's mind battles too...in PRAYER. That's what this is, I am fighting the Devil with my prayers to Jesus and anyone who joins in on these prayers is fighting side by side with me. My family deserves reconciliation. It is God's will that a husband and wife should love each other and be One with Him. My husband needs Jesus and to be the head of this family as Christ is head of the church.
We can make this happen! I love my husband!
Monday, June 7, 2010
wherever two or more are gathered
The more prayers, the greater the chance of a yes, right?! :) SO many people are praying!
May God hear our fervent prayers and may our payers be in line with God's will.
Your will be done, Jesus! I pray for my husband, anything he needs, led him not go without. Put people in place, Lord, to help him, guide him, grow him, into the man You would have him to be. I love you Jesus.
I love my husband!
May God hear our fervent prayers and may our payers be in line with God's will.
Your will be done, Jesus! I pray for my husband, anything he needs, led him not go without. Put people in place, Lord, to help him, guide him, grow him, into the man You would have him to be. I love you Jesus.
I love my husband!
Prayer 6
HIS TEMPTATIONS
Lord, I pray that you would strengthen my husband to resist any temptation that comes his way. Stamp it out of his mind before it ever reaches his heart or personal experience. Lead him not into temptation, but deliver him from evils such as adultery, pornography, drugs, alcohol, food addiction, gambling, and perversion. Remove temptation especially in the areas he is most susceptible. Make him strong where he is weak. Help him to rise above anything that erects itself as a stronghold in his life. May he say, I will set nothing wicked before my eyes; I hate the work of those who fall away; it shall not cling to me. (psalm 101:3)
Lord, You've said that whoever has no rule over his own spirit is like a city broken down without walls (prov 25:28). I pray that my husband will not be broken down by the power of God. Establish a wall of protection around him. Fill him with Your Spirit and flush out all that is not of You. Help him to take charge over his own spirit and have self-control to resist anything and anyone who becomes a lure. May he abhor what is evil and cling to what is good. (romans 12:9) I pray that he will be repulsed by tempting situations. Give him courage to reject them. Teach him to walk in the Spirit so he will not fulfill the lust of the flesh.
(pages 77-78 in TPOPW)
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Please God, I pray this!! I love my husband!
Lord, I pray that you would strengthen my husband to resist any temptation that comes his way. Stamp it out of his mind before it ever reaches his heart or personal experience. Lead him not into temptation, but deliver him from evils such as adultery, pornography, drugs, alcohol, food addiction, gambling, and perversion. Remove temptation especially in the areas he is most susceptible. Make him strong where he is weak. Help him to rise above anything that erects itself as a stronghold in his life. May he say, I will set nothing wicked before my eyes; I hate the work of those who fall away; it shall not cling to me. (psalm 101:3)
Lord, You've said that whoever has no rule over his own spirit is like a city broken down without walls (prov 25:28). I pray that my husband will not be broken down by the power of God. Establish a wall of protection around him. Fill him with Your Spirit and flush out all that is not of You. Help him to take charge over his own spirit and have self-control to resist anything and anyone who becomes a lure. May he abhor what is evil and cling to what is good. (romans 12:9) I pray that he will be repulsed by tempting situations. Give him courage to reject them. Teach him to walk in the Spirit so he will not fulfill the lust of the flesh.
(pages 77-78 in TPOPW)
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Please God, I pray this!! I love my husband!
divorce
My husband made it clear to me today that in one year he plans on filing for divorce.
I'm devastated.
I still very much love my husband!
I'm devastated.
I still very much love my husband!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
devotionals
I'm actually quite impressed with myself. I dont usually stick with devotionals, I'll get one but then put it down after a couple of days. I know 5 days doesn't seem like much, but I have lasted longer than any devotional I've tried, and I plan on finishing this one out. I want change in my marriage relationship, for the better! Me and especially my husband deserves it. God is opening my eyes to things I didn't realize in myself and in my relationship. Things i wish that I would have realized earlier, but the only thing I can do now is pray and do my best at working on myself.
I love my husband and I pray to God that reconciliation is still possible. With God, I know it's possible. I pray that my husband feels my prayers that, somehow even though we are across the country and soon to be across the world, he recognizes something's different within me. I love him and I'm growing close to Christ. I am confidant in the power of prayer. I love my husband!
I love my husband and I pray to God that reconciliation is still possible. With God, I know it's possible. I pray that my husband feels my prayers that, somehow even though we are across the country and soon to be across the world, he recognizes something's different within me. I love him and I'm growing close to Christ. I am confidant in the power of prayer. I love my husband!
Prayer 5
HIS AFFECTION
Lord, I pray for open physical affection between my husband and me. Enable each of us to lay aside self-consciousness or apathy and be effusive in our display of love. Help us to demonstrate how much we care for an value each other. Remind us throughout each day to affectionately touch on another in some way. Help us to not be cold, undemonstrative, uninterested, or remote. Enable us to be warm, tender, compassionate, loving, and adoring. Break through and hardheadedness on our part that refuses to change and grow. If one of us is less affectionate to the others' detriment, bring us into balance.
Where any lack of affection has planted a negative view of marriage in our children, or taught them an incorrect way of relating to a marriage partner, help us model the right way so that they can observe it. Show us how to openly confess our errors to them and demonstrate our commitment to live differently.
Change our habits of indifference or busy-ness. May we not take each other for granted that we don't make the effort to reach out and touch one another with affection. Help us not to weaken the marriage with neglect of this vital means of communication. I pray that we always greet one another with a kiss of love. (1 peter 5:14) I know that only the transforming power of the Holy Spirit can make changes that last. I trust You to transform us and make us the husband and wife You called us to be.
(page 72 from TPOPW)
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Wow, this prayer was huge for me. God really pointed out that I was the one who lacked in showing my affection. My husband is amazing at showing his affection for me. He would come behind my back and hold me. Basically he would hold me any time he could. He loved to be close and touching. I did...but then it kind of wore off. I dont know why...a part of me thinks it's the Mirena IUD that I have. But I just dont know.
My husband would ask for me to lay on him on the couch while we were watching TV or a movie, and I would deny him. I never should have, because I was showing him that I didn't want to be close to him...and that just wasn't the case. I never really realized it till now. I pray that, if I get another chance at being my husband wife in his home, I will show him the affection he deserves. He is a wonderful man deserving of the affection of his wife.
I love my husband!!
Lord, I pray for open physical affection between my husband and me. Enable each of us to lay aside self-consciousness or apathy and be effusive in our display of love. Help us to demonstrate how much we care for an value each other. Remind us throughout each day to affectionately touch on another in some way. Help us to not be cold, undemonstrative, uninterested, or remote. Enable us to be warm, tender, compassionate, loving, and adoring. Break through and hardheadedness on our part that refuses to change and grow. If one of us is less affectionate to the others' detriment, bring us into balance.
Where any lack of affection has planted a negative view of marriage in our children, or taught them an incorrect way of relating to a marriage partner, help us model the right way so that they can observe it. Show us how to openly confess our errors to them and demonstrate our commitment to live differently.
Change our habits of indifference or busy-ness. May we not take each other for granted that we don't make the effort to reach out and touch one another with affection. Help us not to weaken the marriage with neglect of this vital means of communication. I pray that we always greet one another with a kiss of love. (1 peter 5:14) I know that only the transforming power of the Holy Spirit can make changes that last. I trust You to transform us and make us the husband and wife You called us to be.
(page 72 from TPOPW)
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Wow, this prayer was huge for me. God really pointed out that I was the one who lacked in showing my affection. My husband is amazing at showing his affection for me. He would come behind my back and hold me. Basically he would hold me any time he could. He loved to be close and touching. I did...but then it kind of wore off. I dont know why...a part of me thinks it's the Mirena IUD that I have. But I just dont know.
My husband would ask for me to lay on him on the couch while we were watching TV or a movie, and I would deny him. I never should have, because I was showing him that I didn't want to be close to him...and that just wasn't the case. I never really realized it till now. I pray that, if I get another chance at being my husband wife in his home, I will show him the affection he deserves. He is a wonderful man deserving of the affection of his wife.
I love my husband!!
It is so difficult to know that the love of your life is online at this very moment, yet doesn't say a word to you, and has said he doesn't want to hear from you.
I'm trying this whole, no contact thing. We shall see...
It's all in God's hands now, truly. I love and adore my Jesus, my Rock, my Savior.
I love my husband!
I'm trying this whole, no contact thing. We shall see...
It's all in God's hands now, truly. I love and adore my Jesus, my Rock, my Savior.
I love my husband!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
reverse psychology
It has been suggested to me to use reverse psychology on my husband. To act like I am getting along just fine without him.
My fear is that if I act that way, he will think I am just fine without him...and he, in turn, will be ok with getting along without me. Which is, of course, NOT what I want to happen.
I understand that for him to want me, he needs to miss me.
Ugh. I miss him...doesnt he miss me?
I'm lonely.
I also realize that I probably look obsessed, but it's because my other half (i believe when you marry and consummate that marriage, you become one) is separated from me.
And I love my husband very much!
My fear is that if I act that way, he will think I am just fine without him...and he, in turn, will be ok with getting along without me. Which is, of course, NOT what I want to happen.
I understand that for him to want me, he needs to miss me.
Ugh. I miss him...doesnt he miss me?
I'm lonely.
I also realize that I probably look obsessed, but it's because my other half (i believe when you marry and consummate that marriage, you become one) is separated from me.
And I love my husband very much!
Prayer 4
HIS SEXUALITY
Lord, bless my husband's sexuality and it an area of great fulfillment for him. Restore what needs to be restored, balance what needs to be balanced. Protect us from apathy, disappointment, criticism, busy-ness, unforgiveness, deadness, or disinterest. I pray that we make time for another, communicate our true feelings openly, and remain sensitive to what each other needs.
Keep us sexually pure in mind and body, and close the door to anything lustful or illicit that seeks to encroach upon us. Deliver us from the bondage of past mistakes. Remove from our midst the effects of any sexual experiences - in thought or deed - that happened outside of the relationship. Take away anyone or anything from our lives that would inspire temptation to infidelity. Help us to abstain from sexual immorality so that each of us will know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor. (1 thess 4:3-5) I pray that we will desire each other and know one else. Show me to make myself attractive and desirable to him and be the partner he needs. I pray that neither of us will ever be tempted to think about seeking fulfillment elsewhere.
I realize that an important part of my ministry to my husband is sexual. Help me to never use it as a weapon or a means of manipulation by giving and withholding it for selfish reasons. I commit this area of our lives to You, Lord. May it be continually new and alive. Make it all that You created it to be.
(pages 65-66 of TPOPW)
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This is one area that my husband and I rarely floundered in. We both love sex. Now, more recently my sex drive has slowed down due to my own anger issues. We still enjoyed sex multiple times a week...but we were used to it daily. I loved my husbands touches and I loved being close to him. More and more though, I stopped being as open to those touches. Which was wrong of me. I want to apologize to my husband for that. He would invite me to lay on him on the couch and I'd refuse. How must that have made him feel? I should have willingly accepted the invitation. I love my husband!
Lord, bless my husband's sexuality and it an area of great fulfillment for him. Restore what needs to be restored, balance what needs to be balanced. Protect us from apathy, disappointment, criticism, busy-ness, unforgiveness, deadness, or disinterest. I pray that we make time for another, communicate our true feelings openly, and remain sensitive to what each other needs.
Keep us sexually pure in mind and body, and close the door to anything lustful or illicit that seeks to encroach upon us. Deliver us from the bondage of past mistakes. Remove from our midst the effects of any sexual experiences - in thought or deed - that happened outside of the relationship. Take away anyone or anything from our lives that would inspire temptation to infidelity. Help us to abstain from sexual immorality so that each of us will know how to possess his own vessel in sanctification and honor. (1 thess 4:3-5) I pray that we will desire each other and know one else. Show me to make myself attractive and desirable to him and be the partner he needs. I pray that neither of us will ever be tempted to think about seeking fulfillment elsewhere.
I realize that an important part of my ministry to my husband is sexual. Help me to never use it as a weapon or a means of manipulation by giving and withholding it for selfish reasons. I commit this area of our lives to You, Lord. May it be continually new and alive. Make it all that You created it to be.
(pages 65-66 of TPOPW)
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This is one area that my husband and I rarely floundered in. We both love sex. Now, more recently my sex drive has slowed down due to my own anger issues. We still enjoyed sex multiple times a week...but we were used to it daily. I loved my husbands touches and I loved being close to him. More and more though, I stopped being as open to those touches. Which was wrong of me. I want to apologize to my husband for that. He would invite me to lay on him on the couch and I'd refuse. How must that have made him feel? I should have willingly accepted the invitation. I love my husband!
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