Thursday, June 3, 2010

Praying for my Husband

My husband and I are separated as of 5 days ago. I love him with all my heart and would do just about anything to bring us closer together in our marriage. Our marriage has been on the downslide, however. We argue incessantly, making everything, even simple day to day tasks into arguments. It has proven exhausting and my husband has made it clear that he wants out. He doesn't want to be married anymore.
I believe that one should exhaust every source before making the decision to divorce, especially when neither of the two persons is particularly abusive or adulterous. We were going to go to marriage counseling, but our last fight was the final straw for my husband and he sent me and my children packing to my parents house. Now, dont get me wrong, a fight is a two-way street, I did multiple wrongs to get myself into this situation, it is just just simply, we fight, so my husband said it's over...

I was told by a good friend that "A man will let his relationship suffer to keep his sense of self, whereas a woman will lose her identity to try to fix a relationship." Where he had heard this quote, I do not recall, but in the case of my marriage, this is definitely true. And seeing as I can do nothing to change my husband and his faults, I must focus on myself and mine (which i should have been doing from the moment i was married). The biggest more important thing that I took away from my own self, was my faith. Now, I still believe what I believed, but I stopped reading my Bible. I stopped praying. I stopped going to church. My faith was my identity, and I gave it away, only to have my marriage near ruins.
Prayer is huge! And I have determined that I will set aside time every day to pray for my husband, myself, and my children. In doing this, I give everything to God, it's all in His court now. To help me know how to pray for my husband, I've enlisted in the help of a book... "The Power of a Praying Wife" by Stormie Omartian. I started it yesterday and already it is a very convicting book. I want to put the prayers up here on this blog each day as a testament to my prayers for my husband. I love him! And I want the absolute best for our marriage.

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